karmakiller

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Hey. How are you?

I completely understand you. I sometimes get angry with him, because when I worry about him he gets mad at me like I am doing something bad to him. Right now I'm stuck with not knowing if I should push him a little (to get him to talk to me, get a steady job, etc.) and potentially drive him away, or letting him be and let him drive himself away. No matter what happens, I will always be here for him and he knows he'll never have to apologize to me for the way he feels.

Not to sound mean, but sometimes I feel like I am dealing with a child. His friends open up more to me than he does.

I'm sorry to be dropping personal issues on you like I have been lately.

I was screened for PTSD not too long ago. What I learned is that, due to the nature of the job, many Marines share the same traits when it comes to dealing with hardships. We're conditioned, to an extent, to not ask for help and figure it out for ourselves. He's going to be stubborn and tell you that he has it all under control because in his head, he doesn't think that anyone else understands completely. Because they don't understand completely, then they are of no use helping him. I understand.

Still, misfortune and hardships aren't acceptable reasons for self-pity and despair. I know I sound harsh, especially not knowing the entire situation. I really don't mean to disrespect you or him by saying this, but as a fellow Marine (once a Marine, always a Marine [for him]), I'm thinking of this as if I'm talking to my own brother.

Merry Christmas, my dear.

I am just frustrated with my brother. He thinks it's easier to shut himself off to the world. The only thing he will tell me is that he gets night terrors, so he knows it's time for a break and that I may not hear from him until he finds a new place. He gets angry with me when I try to get him to talk to me and just tells me he has everything under control. I just don't know what to do anymore. When I call he says he has to go and he'll call me later, but never does. I feel like he isn't my brother anymore.

That ^ sounds really depressing. I'm sorry. :(

Merry Christmas, Dee.

So why is it that your brother is having such a hard time? Is it the PTSD?

It's ok. Those morbid comments always find their way to my page, haha.

I picked up a weird habit of having my cell phone in my bed with me when I sleep, because when my brother and cousin were gone they would always call me at such odd times.

My brother lost his job, because he would show up drunk and was supposedly unreliable. So he's moving again. I have to give him some tough love and let him know no matter how many times he changes scene, he needs to change himself.

Sorry for ranting, haha.

That was a really morbid comment. My bad, lol

If I die prematurely, the world will be in complete chaos. Srsly. I refuse to get 'offed' in Iraq (not this late in the game). Afghanistan? Different story.

That actually sounds warm to me. Not hot, but warm. I've never had a vacation, so I am long overdue for one. Sadly I can't pause life and go do the things I want to do.

I am glad that you are ok. I probably would've thought that you wandered off somewhere and got lost had something bad happened to you. When are due back?

Believe it or not, I'm NOT sweating my ass off. The weather has been anywhere from 45 to 65 degrees. Of course this is freezing cold for me because 4 months ago, the daily high was 140. Hmm. I need to go to 77 degrees and sunny skies with a sea breeze. I need a vacation. -_-

Good news, I hit something (that thing that goes boom on the side of the road) and survived. I'm a little banged up, but I'm good.

I can't complain. The weather sucks, though. It was a high of -4 today. I am freezing my ass off and you are over there sweating your ass off. There needs to be a happy medium.

I'm doing very well. How are you, Dee?

'Ello, sir. How are you doing?

I think I can help you out with that.

haha, I'm too inexperienced to the excitement back.

O RLY? So you're implying that you'll be the one to bring the excitement back into my life?

haha, just consider this a resting period for your sex life. It'll be back in full swing before you know it ;)

Sex is amazing.
Too bad my sex life is non-existent. :sad:

hahahahahaha I read your posts in the Relationships forum.